Fanfare.

It's crazy to think that in less than a week I'll be away from everything that makes me feel comfortable, secure, and competent.  As much as I want to deemphasize these next two years, I'm realizing that this is all pretty huge.  It has demanded much faith, at times much more than I think I can muster...to come to this point of finally leaving is unreal.

The hardship surrounding my decision surprises me at times.  I forget that faith cannot be forged without resistance.  Yet I can resolutely declare that this is worth it (this said with tears streaming down my face).  "Be strong and courageous.  Do not be terrified, do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."

I have always been one to seek the approval of others.  I want the pomp and circumstance.  That is, "Hey you out there, don't you care that I'm leaving?  I deserve your recognition!"  I think I may qualify as one of the ugliest felons because while people applaud my humility, I'm secretly prideful to the core.