9.5.09

In the midst of what was chaos in the last month I found solace through adding routine and discipline to my life. Blogging, as odd as it may sound, is one. Eating oatmeal is another - officially, this habit is now two years and running. I surprise even myself with that one. I started running again, too (which, I'm realizing I've already announced here).

Someone much wiser than me said that if we do things only when we "feel" like it, this probably wouldn't be often at all. I see so much truth to this. I don't ever feel like eating oatmeal. I have to talk myself out the door (literally) each time I'm supposed to run. Would I rather keep thoughts in my head or express them to the world via my blog? I'll let you guess. If I relied on sheer feelings, I wouldn't get much done at all.

There has to be a compelling "why" behind any form of discipline. I still wrestle with these "whys" sometimes. Shaky motivations translate into less than zealous pursuit of discipline. When this happens I'm forced to rexamine that ultimate why.