Too Modest?
I have this thing about not liking to talk about what I'm good at. I used to think it was humility but in fact, it's pride. How so? Because if someone knows I'm capable of something, then I have to perform. And if I don't meet their expectations? Then I fail. If I fail? I'm humiliated and possibly, rejected.
If it sounds like I'm being facetious, I'm not trying to be. It's really what keeps me from piping up that I say, speak Chinese. Then I (humbly) bust out a phrase or two. Instant compliments! 你的中文说的很好!It's also oddly enough what keeps me from doing things that I'm not so good at (to which there's a long list)--like no thanks to that microphone at karaoke.
I imagine a life free from this needs the root understanding of Acceptance. I have a life spent on trying to get that more and more.
An image of freedom (thank you AC for striking a model pose):