I got a lot of things done last year. I feel good about that. They say being successful requires a fanatical type of discipline. I have this discipline in spurts, but in subsequent moments am mired in complacency. It's like I'm driving along at high speed only to put on the brakes completely. I've had to deal with this complacency at various moments, including getting into this new year. What's behind this complacency? I can think of a few things:

1. Fear. I'm very much swayed by what I see (or don't see) in front of me. I think of Peter, who when asked to get out of the boat and walk towards Jesus in the midst of the storm, was swayed more by the storm than his Savior (Matthew 14:22-33).

2. Overanalyzing. I can't help but always be analyzing something. When something doesn't make sense I'll balk and question its validity. Nicodemus was very much in this mindset, and was perhaps overanalyzing in his exchange with Jesus on being born again (John 3:1-22). In overanalyzing I forget to allow for faith.

3. Mistrust. I suppose this could be defined as a lack of faith, but really it's a misplaced trust in self over God. Thus it becomes mistrust because if I ask myself if I really trust God - like the kind it says in Proverbs 3:5 with all my heart - I'm not sure I can honestly say that I do. Mistrust makes me unwilling to move forward and allow seeds of doubt.

Now that I've broken down this complacency, it's time to deal with it...